Hello Hello Explorers, welcome to The Exploration Hour, where we dive deep into the intersections of the inner and outer universes—taking the time to explore the emotions, ideas, and mysteries that shape our lives. I’m your host, Kate and I host this space typically on weekday nights where we dare to ask the big questions, and together we dare to answer them for ourselves and others too. Now, today’s episode is all about a feeling that’s often seen as dark and destructive, but—if we’re willing to look a little deeper—can actually be a powerful force for transformation: envy.
Now, we often talk about envy in terms of moral failings—something to be ashamed of, something that can eat away at our happiness. But what if I told you that, like every other emotion, envy has a biological, physiological, and even quantum component? What if it wasn’t just a “bad feeling” to push away, but instead a powerful signal embedded in both our biology and our relationships that could propel us to a better understanding of who we are and what we truly want? It’s something we all experience, though most of us would prefer not to talk about it. Envy is one of those emotions that feels uncomfortable to admit, let alone embrace. It has this nasty reputation of making us resentful, bitter, and often petty. The classic image of envy is a green-eyed monster, gnashing its teeth in the corner of our psyche, right? But what if I told you that envy doesn’t have to be something we run from or repress? What if it could actually be a guide? Let’s explore how envy works in both our bodies and our relationships and how we can learn to channel it for growth and healing.
Envy, like any emotion, is a message—a kind of signal. The trick is learning how to interpret it, to decode what it's trying to tell us about our inner desires, our needs, and the things we value most deeply. And when we do that, instead of letting envy burn us out with frustration, we can use it to fuel the creation of a life that is more aligned with our truest selves.
So, let’s dive into it.
We tend to think of envy and jealousy as the same thing, but there’s actually a crucial difference. Envy arises when we see something we want that someone else has—be it success, beauty, love, wealth—and feel this pang of desire, even maybe a sense of inadequacy in comparison. It’s the voice inside you that says, “Why do they have that, and I don’t?” Jealousy, on the other hand, tends to be about something we already have and are afraid of losing. It’s not about longing for someone else’s thing—it’s about fearing that someone might take what’s already ours. Both are powerful emotions, but for today, we’re focusing on envy.
At its core, envy isn’t some evil force—it’s simply an expression of what we desire. It points to something that we feel is missing in our lives. But the problem is, instead of reflecting on what that missing piece actually is, we often project our envy outward, toward the other person. This is where things go sideways. Envy unchecked can lead to bitterness and resentment, which are like quicksand—they trap us and prevent us from doing the real work of self-inquiry.
Here’s the thing: when you feel envy, don’t just ignore it or pretend it’s not there. Don’t just scroll through social media feeling miserable, seeing other people’s highlight reels, and then hating yourself for being "less than" them. Instead, ask yourself: What does this envy say about me? What am I really desiring? Is it freedom, success, connection, adventure? Does this other person’s life remind me of something I haven’t yet given myself permission to want?
This, my friends, is the key. When we can start looking at envy as a reflection of our own unacknowledged desires, we can use it to illuminate what is truly important to us. Envy doesn’t have to be a trap. It can be a map. It’s a map pointing to what’s calling us, to the life we truly want to live.
There’s a beautiful paradox here: envy can show us the path to our best selves—if we’re willing to ask the tough questions and do the hard work. So let’s think about that. What would it look like to use envy as a guide instead of a weapon?
Take a moment and think about something you’ve felt envious of. It might be someone’s career, a relationship, their creativity, their accomplishments. And then ask yourself: What would it mean for me to have that? What does that person’s success represent for me, beyond just wanting their exact situation?
This is where the transformation happens. Envy turns from a negative emotion to an invitation—a nudge to examine what you truly desire in your own life. The beauty of envy is that it can show us the gaps in our own lives that we’re too busy or scared to acknowledge. What is it that you secretly want but haven’t given yourself permission to go after?
The Physics of Envy: A Relational Force
Let’s talk about the physics of envy. Yes, I said physics. Envy isn’t just an abstract concept—it's a dynamic force that operates in the complex system of our relationships. In fact, we can think of envy like a kind of relational energy.
Imagine the universe as a web of interconnected particles, atoms, and forces. Every relationship is a node in this network, with energy moving between people, ideas, and experiences. Now, when we feel envy, it’s like a disruption in the field of energy. You see someone else’s success, and something inside you shifts—it’s almost like a charge that gets activated. But here’s where it gets interesting: this charge doesn’t necessarily have to be negative. In quantum mechanics, particles don’t just react to one another in fixed ways; they also influence and entangle with each other, creating new possibilities for interaction. Just like those quantum particles, you and your desires are connected to everything around you.
Envy is essentially your body’s way of saying, “I want to be part of that energy field. I want to align with that success, that love, that sense of freedom.” The moment you notice envy, you’re not just reacting to the other person’s energy; you’re being invited to become more aware of your own energy and where you want to direct it.
So, in a way, envy can be thought of as a force of attraction in your relational field, pulling you toward a goal, a desire, or a way of being that you have yet to align with. The more we can consciously engage with this energy instead of recoiling from it, the more we can channel it into positive transformation.
The Biology of Envy: A Hormonal and Neurological Reaction
Now, let’s turn to the biology of envy—what’s happening in your brain and body when envy strikes? Envy isn’t just a thought; it’s a complex cascade of hormones and neural activity. When we experience envy, there’s an activation in the ventral striatum, which is part of the brain’s reward system. The ventral striatum is involved in evaluating potential rewards and is responsible for feelings of pleasure, motivation, and, yes, sometimes, frustration. It’s where we feel the pull of desires.
Envy also triggers the anterior cingulate cortex (ACC), which is involved in emotional processing, especially when there’s a sense of conflict or pain. This is why envy feels uncomfortable—it’s not just a passing thought; it’s a real emotional experience that activates the brain’s pain centers. Essentially, your brain interprets envy as a signal that something is “off,” something is missing, or something needs to change. In evolutionary terms, this response was crucial—it helped humans identify what they wanted, which in turn motivated them to seek out what they needed to survive or thrive.
At the same time, envy can increase levels of cortisol, the stress hormone. If we stay in a state of envy for too long, this chronic stress can affect our immune system, our energy levels, and our overall well-being. So while envy itself isn’t dangerous, the way we react to it can cause harm. If we let it fester or become toxic, we may experience long-term stress or burnout.
But here’s the kicker: if we can channel envy in a constructive way, instead of simply letting it spiral into resentment or self-doubt, it can trigger the release of dopamine—the “feel-good” neurotransmitter. This is the chemical that motivates us to take action, set goals, and work toward things that align with our values. When you feel envy, you are, in essence, being pushed by your own biology toward self-improvement and goal-directed action. This is where envy starts to work for you, not against you.
The Soul of Envy: The Spiritual Dimension
And then, of course, there’s the soul—the deeper, intangible layer of our experience. Envy isn’t just a physical sensation or a mental reaction; it’s also a message from our inner self. On a soul level, envy points to a disconnection between where we are and where we want to be. It illuminates our unmet desires, our unspoken hopes, and our buried aspirations. When we feel envy, we’re looking at a mirror of our own soul’s longing.
In this sense, envy is a spiritual call to action. It’s not about comparing ourselves to others in a way that diminishes our self-worth; it’s about recognizing that we, too, are capable of creating the life we desire. Envy is the energy of yearning—the part of us that knows what’s possible if we align with our truest path. Instead of seeing it as a source of shame, we can view it as a spiritual invitation to step into our full potential.
Let’s talk about how this works in real life—because it’s not just theoretical. History gives us some profound examples of people who allowed envy to shape their journeys. But they didn’t let envy destroy them—they let it drive them toward something bigger.
One of the most famous and tragic examples of envy gone wrong comes from the world of Roman politics. The emperor Nero, notorious for his tyrannical rule, provides us with a cautionary tale of how jealousy and insecurity can spiral into destructive obsession. Nero’s envy wasn’t just about wanting what others had—it was about fearing that others might outshine him. He was so insecure about his power and popularity that he resorted to violence to maintain control. He had his mother killed, fearing she might be too powerful. He murdered his wife. He eliminated any potential rival to his throne—most famously, the philosopher Seneca, his former advisor.
Nero’s downfall is a tragic example of how unchecked envy leads to paranoia, self-destruction, and chaos. He never took the time to reflect on his fears or desires. Instead of seeing his envy as an opportunity for personal growth, he used it to fuel destruction. He became a ruler who was constantly looking over his shoulder, fearing others, and as a result, he never truly lived—he only survived in the most brutal, hollow way possible.
Now, contrast that with a different kind of response to envy—one that turned personal conflict into a powerful catalyst for growth. Charles Darwin is a great example. Darwin, as many of you know, is credited with developing the theory of evolution by natural selection, a groundbreaking idea that changed the course of biology forever. But it wasn’t just his own curiosity that led him to this discovery—it was also a deep awareness of his contemporaries. Alfred Russel Wallace, another naturalist, came up with similar ideas about evolution at the same time. Darwin felt a surge of envy, not just because Wallace was proposing similar theories, but because Wallace was gaining attention for it. Darwin was afraid his own ideas would be overshadowed.
Now, Darwin could have let that envy paralyze him. He could have buried his theories in insecurity and self-doubt. But instead, he used it as motivation. He dove deeper into his research, refining his theory with the meticulous attention to detail that only envy can inspire. It wasn’t about Wallace—it was about making his own work irrefutable. Darwin’s response to his envy wasn’t about defeating another person; it was about perfecting his own contribution to the world. And in the end, it wasn’t Wallace who defined Darwin’s legacy—it was how Darwin embraced his inner conflict and used it to drive him toward excellence.
In his own words, Darwin said,
“A man who dares to waste one hour of time has not discovered the value of life.”
Darwin wasn’t just reflecting on how precious time is—he was recognizing that the things that drive us, the things that challenge us, even the things that make us uncomfortable, are part of a larger, beautiful process of becoming who we are meant to be.
So, what does this mean for us? The message is clear: Envy is not an enemy. It’s a guide. It’s a compass pointing us toward what we want, what we value, and, ultimately, what we need to focus on to create the life we desire. It’s not about comparing ourselves to others or feeling "less than." It’s about recognizing that envy is a signpost that tells us what we truly care about.
Rather than seeing envy as a threat, I invite you to see it as an opportunity. Every time you feel envious, ask yourself: What is this emotion trying to tell me about my desires? What am I not acknowledging in myself? Use envy as a mirror to reflect on what you’re really yearning for. And instead of letting it drain your energy or fuel negative thoughts, let it inspire action—toward creating the life that aligns with your truest aspirations.
Steps to Transform Envy from a Negative Experience into a Positive, Progressive One
So, you’ve felt the pang of envy—a sharp twist in your chest, maybe a wave of frustration or self-doubt. We've all been there. But what if that feeling didn’t have to be a roadblock? What if you could reframe envy, not as a destructive emotion, but as a powerful guide—a kind of inner compass that helps you grow and move forward?
Let’s break down some practical steps that will allow you to shift envy from a negative, stagnating force into something that propels you toward the life you want. These steps will not only help you better understand and manage envy but will also give you the tools to transform it into an engine for positive change.
Step 1: Acknowledge the Envy Without Judgment
The first step in transforming envy is acknowledging it. A lot of people try to avoid or suppress the feeling because it’s uncomfortable or makes them feel insecure. But the truth is, trying to run away from envy only strengthens its grip. The longer we ignore it, the more it has control over us.
Instead of pushing the feeling down, give yourself permission to feel it. If you're envious, just admit it to yourself. You can say, “Okay, I’m feeling envy right now. It’s part of being human.” You don’t need to assign moral judgment to it. Envy is a natural emotion, and just because you feel it doesn’t mean you're a bad person.
This is key because when you acknowledge envy, you’re taking the first step in understanding what it’s trying to tell you. You’ve already taken control of it instead of letting it control you.
Step 2: Shift Your Perspective—View Envy as a Message
Envy is not just an emotional reaction; it’s a message from your inner self. Think of it like a warning light on the dashboard of a car. When that light comes on, it’s not there to make you feel bad; it’s telling you something important—maybe it’s time to check the oil or air pressure.
So, when you feel envy, ask yourself: What is this emotion trying to tell me?
Is it showing you something you want for yourself?
Is it highlighting a part of your life where you feel unfulfilled or disconnected from your deeper desires?
Rather than seeing envy as a destructive force, consider it a clue that something in your life needs attention. If you’re envious of someone’s career, for example, ask yourself: What is it about their career that resonates with me? Is it their freedom, their creativity, their impact on the world?
This shift from “I feel bad because I don’t have what they have” to “I feel envy because I’m being shown a desire I haven’t yet fulfilled” opens the door to self-inquiry and growth.
Step 3: Identify the Desire Behind the Envy
Envy is always rooted in desire. That’s the core of it. You see someone else’s success, their relationship, their lifestyle, and you want it—whether consciously or subconsciously. But here’s the thing: often, we’re envious of the surface of what someone has—without digging into the deeper reasons why we want it.
So, the next step is to uncover the true desire behind the envy. Take some time to journal or reflect on these questions:
What exactly do I envy about this person or situation?
Why do I want this? What would it bring to my life?
Is there a deeper need this envy is pointing to? (For example, connection, recognition, freedom, creativity, purpose?)
By identifying the deeper desire behind your envy, you can separate the feeling from comparison and begin to focus on fulfilling your own needs. Envy becomes less about competition and more about the call to create your own version of what you truly want.
Step 4: Reframe Envy into Inspiration
Once you’ve identified the deeper desire, reframe your envy as inspiration. Instead of seeing someone else’s success as a reminder of your own lack, shift your mindset and ask: What can I learn from this person’s success?
This is a huge mental shift. Envy doesn’t have to be a zero-sum game. Just because someone else has something you want doesn’t mean there’s less of it available for you. In fact, their success might be proof that what you want is possible.
For example, if you envy someone’s artistic success, don’t focus on how they “beat” you or how you’ll never achieve the same thing. Instead, think, “They’ve shown me that this kind of creativity is possible. How can I incorporate more creativity into my life? What steps can I take to start my own creative journey?”
This approach turns envy into a source of motivation, a wellspring of ideas for how to move forward in your own life.
Step 5: Set Specific, Actionable Goals Based on Your Desires
Now that you’ve identified what you want, and you’ve reframed envy as inspiration, it’s time to take concrete action. Turn those abstract desires into clear, actionable goals. This is where the transformation happens—because envy, if left unchecked, can lead to stagnation. But when paired with clear intentions and goals, it becomes a powerful catalyst for progress.
Let’s say you’re envious of someone’s physical fitness. Instead of stewing in frustration, write down specific steps you can take to improve your own health. Maybe it’s joining a gym, starting a morning routine, cooking healthier meals, or simply taking more walks during the day. The key here is to break down your envy into clear action items. The more specific and measurable your goals, the more you can channel your energy into productive outcomes.
Setting goals not only helps you focus but also gives you the confidence that you are moving toward what you truly want.
Step 6: Practice Gratitude for Your Own Unique Path
One of the most powerful ways to neutralize the negative aspects of envy is to cultivate gratitude for your own journey. It’s easy to look at someone else and think, “They have everything I want,” but that perspective ignores the unique path you’ve already walked—and the things you’ve already achieved.
Take a moment to write down three things you’re grateful for about your own life. Focus on your strengths, the progress you’ve made, and the aspects of your life that bring you joy. By doing this, you shift your mindset from scarcity (there’s not enough to go around) to abundance (there is so much I already have). Gratitude grounds you in your own reality and helps you see the value in your own experiences.
When you are grounded in gratitude, envy loses its ability to make you feel “less than.” Instead of being motivated by comparison, you’re motivated by the desire to continue growing, from a place of inner abundance.
Step 7: Reinforce Your Progress with Self-Compassion
Finally, remember that change takes time, and you will have setbacks. Envy is a natural emotion, and no one is immune to it. Don’t beat yourself up when it arises. Instead, practice self-compassion. When envy strikes, remind yourself that it’s simply a reflection of your desires and that you’re on the right path. Acknowledge the emotion, learn from it, and then gently move forward.
If you’ve taken action steps, even small ones, celebrate those wins. This reinforces the idea that you are capable, that you can harness envy as a force for good. Every time you move from envy into action, you reinforce your growth.
Envy doesn’t have to be a destructive emotion. It can be a powerful tool for transformation. By acknowledging envy, identifying the desires behind it, reframing it as inspiration, and taking concrete action toward your goals, you can shift it from a source of negativity into a force for progress and self-discovery.
So, the next time you feel the sting of envy, ask yourself: What is this emotion telling me? Use it as a guide to uncover deeper desires, set goals, and ultimately create the life that reflects your truest self. Embrace envy as a friend, not an enemy—and let it lead you to the life you’ve always dreamed of.
Now that we’ve unpacked the science and soul of envy, let’s take a moment to experience it and see how we can channel it for good. I’m going to guide you through a 10-minute meditation and journal exercise to reflect on your own experience with envy.
Find a comfortable seat. Close your eyes if you can, and take a deep breath in through your nose, letting your belly expand with air. Exhale slowly. Again, inhale deeply and exhale with intention. Let the stress of the day fall away.
As you breathe, I want you to bring to mind something or someone you’ve recently felt envy toward. It could be an accomplishment, a possession, a relationship—whatever comes to mind first. Notice where you feel the emotion in your body. Is there tightness in your chest? A knot in your stomach? Pay attention to the sensation of envy without judgment. It’s just a feeling, like any other.
Now, let’s start with a simple question: What is this envy telling me about what I truly want?
Sit with that question for a moment. Feel the emotion. Let it surface. Maybe there’s a part of you that craves freedom, success, love, recognition, or peace. What does this envy reflect about your own desires?
Next, I want you to shift your focus to your breath again. As you breathe in, imagine that you are drawing in the energy of possibility—the potential to create the life you’re yearning for. As you exhale, let go of any tension, fear, or doubt. Let go of the idea that envy is something to suppress. Allow it to be a signal, a guiding force that points you toward your truest self.
Now, open your eyes and take out your journal. On a fresh page, write down your answers to the following questions:
What is the specific thing that I envy? (Be honest with yourself.)
What is the deeper desire behind this envy? (For example, if you envy someone’s career, is it freedom, recognition, or purpose you crave?)
How can I use this envy to inspire positive action? (What small step can I take toward fulfilling this desire in my own life?)
How does this envy reflect something I need to develop in myself? (Is there an aspect of your own potential that you’ve been neglecting or underestimating?)
Take your time with these questions. Let your answers be raw and honest.
When you’re finished, take a moment to reflect on the fact that you are already the person capable of achieving these desires. Envy is not a sign that you are lacking. It’s simply a reminder that there’s more to discover and create in your life.
Envy, in all its complexity, is not a force to be feared. It’s a guide, a messenger from both the brain and the soul, pointing us toward what we truly want and who we can become. By understanding the biological and relational dynamics at play and by tuning into the deeper spiritual messages behind our envy, we can begin to harness this powerful emotion as a tool for growth, alignment, and transformation.
So, the next time you feel envy, don’t shy away from it. Embrace it as an invitation to ask deeper questions about your desires and your path forward. Use it as a force to propel you toward the life you’ve always dreamed of.
Thank you for joining me on this exploration of envy. May we all find the courage to face our desires honestly, to transform envy into a tool for growth, and to design lives that reflect our deepest dreams. I’ll see you next time on The Exploration Hour. Stay curious. Stay intentional. And remember—envy is a guide, not a curse.
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